SPOILT BRATS!

I just realised... I am surrounded by SPOILT BRATS!

S P O I L T B R A T S !

Why i emphasize on SPOILT BRATS? Well, why?? WANT TO KNOW WHY? THIS IS BECAUSE PEOPLE NEVER FELT DISAPPOINTMENT IN THEIR ENTIRE LIVES! THESE ARE THE SORT OF PEOPLE WHO ALWAYS GET WHAT THEY WANT! WHAT THEY DESIRE! WHAT THEY YEARN! THEY GET! What is that?

THAT IS BEING A MOTHER FUCKING SPOILT BRAT!

WHY CAN'T SOME PEOPLE UNDERSTAND THE DIFFICULTY THAT I HAVE INSTEAD OF THINKING OF THEIR LEISURE? GOD DAMN IT! WHY AM I FATED WITH FRIENDS LIKE THOSE! AND TO THINK THE ONE PERSON I WOULDN'T EXPECT FROM IT IS ACTUALLY SHOWING HER TRUE SKIN. AH! THEY ONLY THINK OF THEIR OWN LEISURE! THEY DON'T THINK OF OTHER PEOPLE!

I HAD DONE MY MOTHER FUCKING SACRIFICE. I HAD DONE MY PART TO STEP DOWN. BUT, DID THEY APPRECIATE THAT BULLSHIT OF A FUCKING SACRIFICE?? NO!

~THEY. DID. NOT~

I AM SICK AND TIRED OF PEOPLE LIKE THAT! I STEP DOWN. TOLD THEM NOT TO GIVE UP AND THIS HAPPENS!

LIKE HOW GUTH SAID IT, "SHIT HAPPENS!" I WON'T BE SURPRISE SOME OF THESE PARTIES WOULD TELL MY OTHER FRIENDS TO ABANDON ME! GUTH SHOULDN'T BE THAT STUPID BECAUSE I KNOW HIM FOR A LONG TIME!

I HAVE TO ADMIT! AMONG ALMOST EVERYONE I GOT CLOSE TO, I THINK THEY ALMOST NEVER FELT DISAPPOINTMENT IN THEIR LIVES. Bang Tiqa told me today that one cannot satisfy everybody's need... I wish they would understand that bit of life... all they ever think was for their own satisfaction! But never consider other people's difficulty...

I hate it when I have to encounter people like this. And what is sadder still, I trust someone else rather than a relative! Sickening, eh?

Why can't people be more considerate? Why can't they take reasoning? Why can't they take rationality?

I don't know and I don't think I want to care. Ungrateful as they are, I know I did my part to sacrifice.

Yet, it wasn't very much appreciated. Some people don't realise that they make me more disappointed most of the time. Oh well. Life! What can be said or done about it? Spoilt brats!

I am getting to a point where I WANT TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING WITH THEM! I am fed up! Why can't they be more independent? I tend to feel rather pressured when I cannot satisfy people's happiness... they know this but they do that to me. The guilty feelings tend to kill me...

Deep inside of me... I wish they were not selfish... these spoilt brats are so self centred that they pisses me off! Someone said we were like kids... right... I think it should be the other way round. You are the kid, kiddo! Behaving selfish!

愚か!

Houston, I think we've got a problem! I've found more CHILDREN in my life... OH well... I think there is ENOUGH rants for tonight.

Oh God, may you open the eyes of these SPOILT CHILDREN... I wish they would come to realise their immaturity! I wish they would realise that SOMEDAY disappointment would SLAP THEM IN THEIR FACES! I think, I would rather be solitude now. I don't want to get involved with anyone of them anymore. I died. The old me died... I think the OLDER me had come back to life. The darker side of me. I think, if NO ONE do anything about it. That will be the end of it all. Currently, I am still feeling soft. I hope it won't be too late till I get harder at heart. Once I get there. I think even armageddon wouldn't happen!

This is my prayer and only a few people can read it. All the best, people!

我祈祷为他们的幸福和可以他们的心脏开放往失望。我祝愿和祈祷, 他们变得较不自私和更加依赖。他们那么发育未全地行动并且他们没看见它。反而, 他们把他们的手指指向我! Ya Allah, 听见我的祷告, 我祈祷您打开他们的心脏和教他们我从前举行在我的心脏为他们的失望。他们从未意识到, 他们辜负了我。他们从未意识到, 我感觉从他们的失望最坏。我要他们感觉最坏, 我有毛毡。至少教他们教训! 原谅他们的罪孽, ya Allah... 原谅我的往他们! 愿他们学会一两件事我的方式。

I think I have it for now. I hope that prayer will be granted. Just for the goodness of it all in as a lesson!

I am going to stand alone now. And wait... and see... WHO WILL LOOK FOR WHO!

On the bright side, A TRUE FRIEND of mine is coming back to Kuching next month! :) For 2 weeks, too! I think it will be worth it if I spend time with her rather than SOME people! Yeap, I GIVE UP ON SOME PEOPLE! No! I GAVE UP! I GAVE UP BIG TIME! Yet, as stupid as it sounds... There is STILL SOME HOPE!

FUCKING OFF NOW!

~Jezsiema~

PS- some PCs cannot accept other characters... so forgive me if you can't read my prayer!