AH!

FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT! FUCK IT!

Yes, I am in a mother fucking bad mood!

As long as it is night time, I am always like this. No, not because of Maman. No. It is because I feel invisible! YES!! HELLO? CAN YOU FUCKING SEE ME??? IF YOU CAN LET ME KNOW A.S.A.P!

I think I want to retire from IRC. I AM SICK OF IT!

YOU READ ME FUCKNUT!!

I AM SICK OF IRC!!!

I am ALWAYS INVISIBLE!! SO WHAT? I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ANYWAY! IT IS NOT ME BREAKING ANY PROMISES!! AH!!

I DON'T GIVE A SHIT! WHY SHOULD I BOTHER WHEN THEY DON'T SEE ME! SERIOUSLY, I DON'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ANYONE ANYMORE! ALL I KNOW, I WANT TO STAND WHERE I AM STANDING!

Honestly, I am giving myself until end of the year. If I don't heal from this sore feeling. I will forget my IRC life. I will only go online when I feel like it.

I want to start blogging again. I mean like how I used to. I waste less time. Hmm... I don't know why I feel this way? Is it because I finally realised what it is to be a grown up? Seriously, all I see is people provoking each other in the channels. It is sickening. But then, I am told to keep quiet. How can I shut my fucking noise hole up when all people do is provoking others for no reason? I am getting sick of people doing that to others. AH! It is painful because I have seen people doing that to me once. FOR NO FUCKING REASON PEOPLE PROVOKE ME! IT WAS ON IRC AS WELL!! THE FUCKING BASTARD AND HIS CRONIES! (YO, ASSHOLE, DO I LOOK LIKE I BLOODY CARE WHAT I CALL YOU? WHY IS IT BECAUSE OF ME BEING SO FUCKING STUBBORN YOU HATE ME??? FUCK OFF AND GROW UP! OH YEA, YOU TOLD ME ONCE TO GROW UP! THE TABLE'S TURNED ASSHOLE!! YOU GROW UP FUCKER!! YOU ARE THE FUCKER WHO HAD DRIVEN WHAT I THOUGHT MY HAPPINESS WAS! SHE WAS THE ONE PERSON I KNEW I COULD TRUST BUT YOU DROVE HER AWAY FROM ME! SHE IS NOT THE BITCH, YOU ARE, WHORE! YOU ARE THE BITCH!) But now, I think... I should retire from IRC. I am getting tired of it all...

I can get dark when I want to. I can cause homicide when I want to. I know who the fuck I am. SO DON'T EVER THINK ME AS A FUCKING PUSHOVER! DEAL WITH IT IF YOU ARE NOT HAPPY WITH ME!

I DON'T GIVE A DAMN ANYWAY! WHO CARES ABOUT YOU?

I think it is time I 'introduced' myself. Well, I know that my nick, Gothique^Death shows brutality. But then... people see the softer side of me. They hadn't seen my nasty side. Don't make me do it because I play dirty when I want to.

BASTARD, YOU ARE LUCKY I DIDN'T PLAY DIRTY ONTO YOU! YOU ARE LUCKY AT SOME POINT I RESPECTED YOU BUT NOW, YOU ARE LIKE DIRT UNDERNEATH MY FEET!! QUIT BEING A BABY, ASSHOLE! GROW UP!! DON'T TELL ME TO GROW UP!! LOOK INTO THE MOTHER FUCKING MIRROR FIRST!! THEN YOU TELL PEOPLE WHAT TO DO!!!

~Jezsiema